Awakening

Siddhartha left behind him not only the grove in which Buddha remained, but also who he was and all his former life. He became a  man and realized that he needed to learn by  himself what no one could teach him, "It was the Self, the character and nature of which I wished to learn. I wanted to rid myself of the Self, to conquer it, but I could not conquer it, I could only deceive it, could only fly from it, could only hide from it". (Pg. 31) He understood through this awakening,  that  in order to find who he was, he had to stop being afraid of himself as this made him fly away and seek for answers in others, but they were truly and only inside  him. Everyone he knew or thought he did, had to be released, and he felt alone.

Personally, I consider that in order to understand who you are and your inner Self, you do need time alone to think about your real nature. But being surrounded by others is also  important because as we talk, we think,  and we understand more about our personal thoughts and feelings. That is why I  have never liked being alone all the time. If I was Siddhartha, I would not have let go of everyone and everything I was, because all that I have lived with will be inside me. I cannot get rid of  how I was raised, or my experiences.   If I had to change that, then I would be another person.